The Crazy Pattern™ is just about what's important. Both, it's always been both.
These writings represent my personal theories, interpretations, and creative models.
They are shared for exploration and inquiry and should not be interpreted as established scientific fact.
I welcome independent review and scientific evaluation of the hypotheses presented.
Author: Haven Duddy
The Game That Isn’t a Game
When I first discovered that nothing was real—and everything was real—it felt like standing in the surf, waves breaking over me again and again.
If you’ve ever believed in something and then found out it was the opposite of what you thought, you know the feeling:
the ground disappears, and suddenly you see that you were standing on water all along.
That’s what this is. The shock, the surrender, the laughter that follows.
Because the truth, the great cosmic punchline, is simple: we are the joke, and we are what matters.
We’re people. We’re feelings. We are the movement that makes the pattern move.
Love each other. Choose peace. It’s what every teacher has said since the beginning of time, but somehow we keep needing to relearn it.
When I was twenty-six, I stood up in a room full of strangers and said,
Who I am is the possibility of love, beauty, and grace.
And the act I’m giving up is that I can’t do it, and I need help.
That was the moment I learned that anything is possible—and that possibility and probability aren’t opposites at all.
They’re partners in the same dance: one dreaming, one doing, spinning us forward through this beautiful, baffling life.
So if this really is a game, it’s the game of being human.
The only way to win is together.
The only move that ever really counts is kindness.
And when in doubt, the answer has always been the same—
choose love.
So....
if you want to play our game->
The Crazy Game->
the one that isn't really a game
but also absolutely is?
Come on in.
Step Inside.
Tap "Start"
pick up your feelings.
Welcome to Level One.
WELCOME TO HAVEN 2.0
The Weight of Meaning- Most of us live in the tangible world - the realm of what can be touched, measured, or proven. But what I would like you to consider is that the feeling you have about the things in your life may matter far more than the things themselves.
Although the Hidden Heart half of the lattice will be far harder to prove than the Living Lattice- since this realm is invisible - what I've learned is that when the Living Lattice (the measurable) intertwines with the Hidden Heart (the felt) a clear pattern emerges.
The repeatable pattern points to the simple truth: matter does, in fact, matter.
A cup of coffee, a photograph, a hand you hold - these things may look ordinary, yet the energy around them, the emotion they carry, gives them their real substance. And that, I believe, is the proof: that matter matters because we matter, and what we feel shapes the world we see.
Because if nothing truly mattered, who would be there to care?
The Function of Feelings
Energy never disappears - it simpy changes form. Just as the Living Lattice show how measurable systems breathe and balance, The Hidden Heart shows how energy flows through the experience itself. Every laugh, every wave, every shared glance between lovers - all of it is energy made visible.
The Hidden Heart mirrors the same design as the Living Lattice: rhythm, motion, exchange.
The difference is only in the scale and awareness.
One maps the outer world; the other maps the inner. The energy that lifts a tide is the same energy that lifts a heart.
The current the moves water is the same current that moves us towards one another.
In this way, form and feelings are not separate. They are the same truth expressed through different languages - one we can measure, and one we can feel.
The Law of Both-
What I would like for you to consider is simple - yet impossible to forget once you see it. Nothing in this universe is only one thing. It's never just real or unreal, up or down, right or wrong.
The truth - if you can call it that - is both. Always both.
Together, upside down while right side up, looping endlessly.
It's the symmentry of opposites that keeps everything moving-
the pull that turns stillness into motion, light into shadow, certainty into wonder.
The pattern doesn't choice sides, it plays them at the same time.
Except you never know whats real. But then you get to decide, so it just loops and loops and loops.
What This Means
It means absolutely nothing.
Nothing has changed.
Nothing ever does.
Everything you knew before you started reading this is still true — or not true — or both.
I did warn you that crossing over here might make you feel a little bit crazy.
But don’t worry: you’re fine.
Everything’s the same. It’s always been the same.
It’s a magical game called life, and it’s been running forever — looping, spinning, pretending to end but never really ending.
When I first recognized this, I couldn’t even explain it.
I just blurted it out: “It’s the Crazy Pattern.”
Because that’s what it is.
It’s everything and nothing at the same time.
It makes total sense and zero sense, perfectly balanced in its own nonsense.
So here you are, reading this, unchanged and yet somehow different —
still you, just a slightly newer version, pulled forward by your past.
That’s how the pattern works.
But if I had to say what I believe this all means....
And I've thought about it. Plenty.
Believe me, I didn't get this far without thinking about everything.
It's the picture above - the man, the girl, the light, the laughter.
It's the love we feel for each other, the spark in our days,
The magic hiding inside the most ordinary moments that makes this
whole place come alive.
That's it. That's the secret. That's the reason.
And once you understand that, it leads you to my love - The Crazy Pattern
Because once I understood the game, the only word to describe it was crazy.
What I've come to realize is that crazy is simply the difference between what you believe and what's true.
And as Einstein said,
"Truth is nothing more than what we choose to see from within our own perspective."